Thanksgiving Gratitude 2020

How easy it is to slip back into old habits. Over the summer, things were looking up. Now, with the shortening of days and the grim news that seem to envelop us on a daily basis, we all need a little positivity, a little good news, a little light, wherever we can find it.

Yesterday, a large part of the day was spent writing, stream-of-consciousness style, to get out all the things that I’ve had swimming around inside for the past few months.

I figured if today is a day for gratitude, yesterday was to expel the negativity so it was no longer simmering.

But fear stopped me from publicly posting. And I refuse to let myself lapse into darkness today.

On Thanksgiving 2020, I want to reflect on the good things. I’m not a glass half full kind of person, but on the occasions when I get out of my head, I see that things really aren’t so bad.

I have three wonderfully weird, adorable, quirky, loving rescue dogs.

I have a partner who is the human love of my life.

I was lucky enough to find my soulmate, and even though she’s no longer alive, she’s always with me.

My parents are alive. My family is healthy, and growing.

Throughout the craziness that is 2020, I still have a job.

A part of me still has hope that things will turn around, because they’ve already started to.

I have some of the best friends a girl could ever ask for. I sincerely hope that they know how much they matter to me.

I found a group of people who, even though I have never met them in real life, have impacted me in such a way that I need to thank them, simply for being them.

There is one tree by my house that is still the most lovely shade of red. There are piles of leaves clustered around the neighborhood. Living in a city, it’s the closest I get to experiencing Autumn.

I’m sure tomorrow, I’ll be back to my usual, work in progress, pessimistic self. But I will try to not wallow in it. I will try to use those feelings as a catalyst to enact real change.

Tomorrow.

Because today I simply want to revel in good feelings. And good food.

Wishing you and your family, near and far, the happiest day.