Lucky 13

If there was ever a year to test us, this was it. Between the effects of 2020 still lingering, my surgeries and diagnosis, two family deaths in the past two months, and the general ups and downs of life, this really was a make-or-break year. This was the year that showed me, again, that life is better together. I say again because throughout our 13 years, I’ve felt this way over and over.

I said before that you were the human love of my life, and I still believe that. We are on the same wavelength. So often, we think the same things, reference the same quotes, or follow the others tangents. When I once said, “who was that guy, in that thing?” you knew exactly which guy, and exactly which thing, which seems more like a moment from a sitcom than from real life. But it is our real life.

“The more you love someone, the more you want to kill them.”

I remember when we saw finally saw Avenue Q together. You were probably just happy to hear the songs as they were meant to be sung, instead of from my mini, at home concerts that I still like to put on to this day. And, of course, that line is from that musical, which is just so…. apt. I know how much I love you because of how much I want to wring your neck. Because all of the people I love the most drive me the craziest.

I’m pessimistic and cynical. I say that relationships suck. But I love love. I loved when two of my best friends married each other and had a wedding that, to this day, I still reference and describe as a classy, Star Wars themed wedding. I loved when my aunts finally got married after decades of being together. I even love the relationships my parents have chosen, albeit not with each other (which is honestly for the best).

After this past weekend, it’s clearer than ever that love is what makes life worth it. Whether it’s familial, romantic, passionate, or platonic; if you’re lucky, you get more than one. And if you’re really lucky, you get more than one, wrapped up into a nice package.

You are my person. You are my partner. There is no one I’d rather be on this journey with.

I hope it takes us far.

Happy Lucky 13th anniversary.